I'm 80. I have had a good life-mostly pretty happy thought certainly with its ups and downs. My wife died sever years ago. My children are healthy and happy, busy with their kids, careers, friends. But I know they worry about me; they feel increasingly burdened with thoughts about how to care for me when I can no longer care for myself, which-let's not kid ourselves-is coming all too soon. I live four states away from them so either they will have to uproot me and move me close to them or I'll have to go live in a nursing home. I don’t relish either option. This town has been my home for nearly my whole adult life, and I don’t fancy leaving. On the other hand, I do not want to live amount strangers and be cared for by those who are paid minimum wage to wash urine-soaked sheets and force-feed pudding to old people.

I'm in decent health-for the moment. But things are slipping I have prostate cancer. Like just about every other man my age. It probably won't kill me… but having to get up and pee four or five time a night, standing over the bowl for long minutes just hoping something will come out, this might to me in. My joints are stiff, so it doesn't really feel good to walk. I've got bits and pieces of skin cancer here and there that need to be removed. |These things are all "treatable," or so they say(there ar pills to take and procedures to have done). But it seems to me a waste of money. Why not pas my small savings on to my grandkids, to give them a jump on college tuition?

What I do understand is why people think that it is wrong for someone like me to just call it a day, throw in the towel. How can it be possible that I don’t have a "right" to end my own life, when I'm ready?(But apparently I don't).

I'm tired and I'm ready to be done with life.. I'd so much rather just quietly die in my garage with the car running than eke out these last few compromised years. (Even better would be a quick shot or a small dose of powerful pill-but, alas, there are not at my disposal).

But if I do myself in, I will be called a "suicide." My death will be added to the statistics: another "elder suicide". How sad (Doesn't the fact tht so many elderly people commit suicide-and with much greater rates of success. I must say, than any other demographic group-doesn't this tell you something?) Why can't this society just come up with a humane, acceptable plan for those of us ready to be finished? Why can't we old folks go to city hall and pick up our End-of-Life Packet, with the financial and legal forms to bring things into order for our children, with assistance on how to recycle all our unneeded furniture and clothes, and with a neat little pack of white pills: When ready, take all 10 pills at once, with plenty of water. Lie down quietly in a comfortable place, close your eyes and wait.
How can choosing my own end at my own time be considered anything other than a most dignified final exit?

Discussion Questions
What do you think about euthanasia? What kind of advice you would like to give to this old man to solve his problem?